Current mood: isolated and feeling worthless…

My OCD is starting to show and it’s one of the many reasons its dragging me down. I also noticed my ex started streaming to twitch again. Now I know if I mention this to anyone I’ll probably get an angry mouthful from them saying to snap out of it and move on. I’d love to say I’ve moved on but I’ve got no one who understood me on the level she did. She understood what pained me and how to perk me up when I was down.

When we broke up I became more aware of my self image. Probably one of the reasons I lost the weight from me.

But I don’t have the same level of physical emotional support anymore. I haven’t got anyone to go up to and cuddle when I feel down.

At this moment in time I can’t find a reason to wake up in the morning. I’ve got nothing lined up, I’ve got no one to care for. I’ve got, nothing.